Should I…

So, a few days ago my youngest sister K. used a temporary hair coloring and dyed her hair red. It looks lovely and I’ve been thinking that I kind of want a change of color with my hair. My hair is a natural dark auburn, so it has some red highlights but it’s not noticeable unless I’m outside or in the light.

I kind of want to go red, but I know it won’t look like K’s., since our coloring and hair type are totally different. I also don’t want it to be brassy which is what I’m thinking might happen. When I was younger, I used to dye my hair a lot and even used a blondish color, (Which of course gave me the brassy color I want to avoid.) but I was more outgoing then. My mom and youngest sister said they liked it, but my other sister S. said the coloring looked like Ronald McDonald. :/ I don’t want to get that look again…lol.

I guess I have some thinking to do. I don’t want to rush into making this decision. I haven’t messed with my hair in like 5 years and at this point, it’s strong and has its natural coloring. So I don’t know if I want to mess with that. I may get a temporary color like K. did and see how it looks. That way if I don’t like it, it won’t last.

A different light…

Isn’t it strange how you can think you know someone, but out of the blue, they tell you things that complete change the way you see them? I mean it’s not always bad, it just makes you realize that you can never truly know a person you know? Even when they are your family and you believe you are somewhat close.

Let’s just say, that I’ve learned some things about someone close to me tonight and I kind of see them in a different light. Not in a bad way…just different. It also makes me a bit jealous that I can’t just allow myself to be more open and do the things that she does. I bet I would be happier or at least have more fun out of life. However, it also shows me another aspect of humanity that I am not too proud of and I realize that people really do lie to others and themselves…for those pleasures. On one hand it is kind of surprising, on the other hand it’s not.

Thoughts on a new diet…

For the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking about starting another diet. I know that I need to lose some weight and get in shape, but like so many others, I always get off track. At the moment, I am not going through my depression. In fact, things have been feeling pretty good. *knock on wood*, so my bad eating habits can’t be blamed on that. But I have just been eating so horrible lately and I hate it. I crave sugar so bad at the moment and I don’t know why and no I am not pregnant. Heh.

Anyways, the bright spot is that I don’t drink sugary drinks and haven’t for a very long time. So that is good, but I want to remove the snacks from my meals. I think I eat them, because I am bored and well, I love sugary things. However, I’ve got to do something about that because I know I am going overboard with eating junk food. I know having a snack every now and then isn’t a bad thing, but I eat them all. the. time. and that isn’t good for me.

Plus, I need to start exercising more and I am looking into starting a new program where I do some sort of exercise at least 15 minutes a day (to start out). I know it will be good for me. I am thinking about making a chart so I can make myself do some type of workout everyday. Even if it is for a few minutes. It’s just so hard you know? But it is something that I need to do for myself.