It funny how someone can make a statement towards you and it ends up ruining your day and making one feel like complete shit. I know that sometimes people say things and they aren’t trying to be be hurtful, but you are. And I know you are young, but you would should probably think before you open your mouth. There is no need for you to point out the obvious to me every. time. you. see. me. Seriously, I am this close to exploding and telling you to back off and I really shouldn’t have to do that, but if it keeps up I am going to.
Maybe that is why I am beginning to prefer my own company.
So the family got together and we watched a couple of movies. We watched Cloverfield and The Happening. I really like Cloverfield, but I had already seen The Happening and it still left a bitter taste in my mouth even after seeing it a second time around. It just seemed like it could have been a better movie if the writing had been tweaked a bit and with different actors. Oh well. It was nice spending time with the family just enjoying the night. It was fun.
I plan on seeing The Dark Night either tomorrow or Sunday. I can’t wait!
My oldest sister is a chef at a big company and every now and then she will bring us some of her dishes. Well today, she brought home mini fajitas. They have steak and sauteed onions and peppers and her home-made salsa. Man, they were so good. I think I made a pig of myself. lol.
Well today has been much better day then it was two days ago. Sometimes, there are days where I just feel so crazy and dire and I hate that. I know I suffer from depression and I have times when I am up and down, but when I am down…sometimes it gets scary. I guess it’s hard to explain if one doesn’t suffer from depression.
I just feel bad how I snapped at my mother and for something that was so petty on my part. When I get in these bad moods, little things set me off and I don’t mean it. I really don’t. I apologize, but things have been said so I still end up feeling like a bitch. *sigh*
Anyways, I feel better today and I am trying to be more positive about things in my life. It’s hard though and at times, it feels like a daily struggle. However, it’s one of those things I’m just going to have to work on.
I’m going through some serious emotions right now. I wish I could just scream and cry and break everything in my path. I seriously hate life sometimes. I really do.
I just don’t feel like doing anything right now.